i miss you terribly

my heart breaks again and again

trying to erase your memories.

how hard it is to forget!

how has the fragile pigment of ink

become so unwashable?

i let tears flow freely

in a vain hope that it shall

rub my slate clean,

and rid me of this pain -

unbearable, illogical, unnecessary!

i miss you terribly, and

moments of pain pulsates

through my very being.

i try to forget, but every little instance

brings you back, live and knocking!

so many words remained unspoken,

so much time remained unspent,

and yet i can speak no more,

i can reachout no further,

somethings are not meant to be!

in this mote of dust

suspended in a sunbeam,

gratefulness is all that i cherish,

that i could live what until now

was just a four lettered word!

it is all that i have, and

it is all that i will keep having,

that i shall be a well-wisher

until the last breath blows,

until my flame flies off!

- nayan

5:40pm, Friday, February the 9th, 2024

patna