i miss you terribly

my heart breaks again and again

trying to erase your memories.

how hard it is to forget!

how has the fragile pigment of ink

become so unwashable?

i let tears flow freely

in a vain hope that it shall

rub my slate clean,

and rid me of this pain -

unbearable, illogical, unnecessary!

i miss you terribly, and

moments of pain pulsates

through my very being.

i try to forget, but every little instance

brings you back, live and knocking!

so many words remained unspoken,

so much time remained unspent,

and yet i can speak no more,

i can reachout no further,

somethings are not meant to be!

in this mote of dust

suspended in a sunbeam,

gratefulness is all that i cherish,

that i could live what until now

was just a four lettered word!

it is all that i have, and

it is all that i will keep having,

that i shall be a well-wisher

until the last breath blows,

until my flame flies off!

- nayan

5:40pm, Friday, February the 9th, 2024

patna

because YOU ARE

You are asking me

if I'll see you all the time...

But, I wanna tell you this -

I wanna see you

when you're feeling

the most wonderful

within yourself.

And I wanna see you

when you're feeling

the most horrible

within yourself.

I may not see you

all the time.

But yes, I wanna see you

at these two times.

So, will you allow me access

to you at these two times?

And don't you worry -

I won't judge you.

I just want to show you -

YOU through my eyes,

And tell you this -

that these two

are actually not YOU!

So, don't you go

hunting or shaming your image.

For you are simply

because YOU ARE!

So, don't you fall

for criticism or praise.

Doesn't need recognition -

Beautiful you are simply

because YOU ARE!

Without any need of purpose

or pride or importance or guilt,

you can simply BE

because YOU ARE!

nayan

9am, Thu, 8th Feb 2024

Patna

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