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Wednesday, October 21, 2020

आखिरी चाहत Aakhiri Chahat (Last Wish)


ऐ खुदा
यह मुझको बता,
क्या किया था मैंने
कि यह वरदान
तूने मुझको दिया,
कि यहां आ गए हम,
कि यहां आ गए हम!

अब जियें या मरें,
है बस यही अरमान,
कि जियूं तो उसके लिए,
मरूं तो उसके लिए,
ये जान न्योछावर हो
बस अब उसी के लिए!
जिसने सांस लेना सिखलाया,
हर एक सांस अब 
बस उसी के लिए!

संसार की दौलत से परे
जिसने रूह का ख़ज़ाना खुलवाया,
बेबसी और तानों से निकाल कर
जिसने आज़ादी का सपना दिखलाया,
बंद आंखों में भी जिसने
ख़ुदा का नूर छलकाया,
अब और ये न खता हो,
कि उसे छोड़ जाऊं मैं!
कि उसे छोड़ कभी न जाऊं मैं!

जिसने खुद के पहचान से परे
खुद की कीमत समझाया,
जिसने अपनापन के रिश्तों से बढ़कर
खुद में जो ख़ुदा है,
उससे नाता जुड़वाया,
जिसने अपनी ही गहराइयों में छिपे
खुशी और रौशनी का रास्ता दिखलाया,
अब यहां यह धड़कता जीवन भी
बस उसी का नज़राना!

मेरे मालिक, मेरे मौला,
तूने इसको भी खींच लिया,
इस बेवकूफ अभागे को
भी तूने तिलिस्म दिखा दिया!
अब बस बाकी एक और चाहत है,
कि मुझे तू अपने में समा लेना,
फिर वापस जाने न देना,
बस अपने में समा लेना!

-- नयन
बुधवार, २१ अक्टूबर २०२०
कोयंबतूर


Tuesday, October 13, 2020

facing my demons



for ages I have kept running
away from the devils
that reside inside
my dark interiors
of camouflaged compulsions,

for ages I have found
safe gardens where
light does not reach the bottom
to show the shit, where
no one could ever peep
and see what lies hidden,

for ages I have been
troubled inside
with turbulence and nastiness,
but I have been able to
divert attention and kept going on,

for ages I have sought
pleasure in seclusion,
time and again
allowing the cycles to repeat,
basking in the comfort,
assuming no one knows,

for ages I have seen
my legs shaking
when it needed steadiness,
for the foundations
were continuously bitten by
my inner termites,

for ages my being
is being sucked
by a black hole -
self-created and self-nurtured,
and all I did was feeling guilty
after each recurrence,

but now I have decided
to pull down all walls,
cast away all shields,
and stand there
naked under the Sun!

let the fire of a colossal star,
bigger than a thousand black holes,
burn my inner impurities,
light up the eternal pyre, and
chastity me of my hesitation and guilt!

no more now
shall I run away,
no more now
shall I hide,
no more now
shall I fear,
I am now open 
to facing all my demons!

-- nayan
Tue, 13th Oct 2020
Coimbatore

Saturday, October 10, 2020

wondering when wisdom shall prevail


what can you do?
there is nothing to be done.
just you can be...

in the sunlight you look for the moon,
in the night sky you don't see the firefly,
and such a huge mountain hides from your eyes...

what is seen, and what is unseen,
what is the line that separates them?
or is it just the inability to see...

water will anyways flow down the hill,
what else needed to have it's presence felt?
and still we stand thirsty...

cursing the creation when things go wrong,
and bursting into partying when we get what we want,
ups and downs continues to torment...

flower blossoms nourishing from the earth,
butterfly dances, tasting it's nectar,
and to the same earth they merge back...

we come, then act our way on the stage,
with sorrow or joy, knowingly or otherwise,
and then we go, when the curtain falls...

this dance, this melody, this poetry of life,
or a songless, unrhythmic prose of boredom and strife,
this choice, this election vote remains uncasted...

the urge to act, the impulse to react, and a brainless race,
have come with consequences gift-wrapped,
wondering when wisdom shall prevail...

-- nayan
Sat, 10th Oct 2020
Coimbatore